Amazed at how no matter what I do. Whether good or bad, I find a fault. I give a speech, and get a 30/30. I criticize myself on how I could do much much better. I get a B on a Health test. I figure I could do much better, and I consider myself failing the class. But nothing more so when It comes to friendships. Everyday, I feel like I'm losing more and more friends. Instead of gaining more and more.

I'm retreating into myself more and more. I'm becoming a hermit, and I feel that everyday encounters bigger problems than the last. I can't help but feel that something terrible is going to come. Something isn't right.

I miss myself. The old me, who wasn't afraid of things. Who would do anything for a laugh, or for fun. I want to someone to save me from myself.

Everyday, I feel like I'm not good enough. I miss my old friendships, I miss being able to call my dad and have a good conversation with him, but I guess most of all I miss being to just be happy. Not having to force myself to laugh.